Last Wednesday, I had an appointment with 2 neurologist friends. They actually called me because they wanted to tell me about the CT scan results I had last week. I had an accident and CT scan and few other tests were done to me.
My 2 friends, Victor and Miguel read the results to me and they said that lumps were found in my brain during a CT scan. They referred me to another neuro to have the 2nd opinion. This neuro also found out about the lumps located in my brain. One is located in a very complicated part of my brain. This one has been hurting so much for the past weeks.
It's kind of surprising on my part to know that I have these lumps. I know I have brain aneursym and I wonder how in the world did I have brain tumors. I am strong and a bit buff and ever since I believe that I am one of the strongest man on earth. But when the doctors found out about my Grade 3 brain lumps, I could not believe it and my whole world suddenly fell apart. I am now feeling lonely because I know the dreams I have for my future will remain as "just" dreams because I do not even know how long would I still live.
Questions keep running in my mind. And I can't help but ask, Why me? I am young and I am not even 30. I dream of having my own family and giving them the world. But how can I even give the world to them if I might not have a chance to have them.
I am very disappointed that this has to happen to me.
Everyday I feel dizzy and uncontrollable headaches. No one knows how painful those headaches are. Every time I read or watch something, my vision turns blurry.
I cannot imagine myself having this sickness. Who else is going to accept me now? :(
I am going to continue living alone in my condo unit.
Whatever will be, will be.
I am now wondering what will happen to everything I built and saved if someday, I really have to leave.
Whatever will be, will be? No. I might have to do something about these until I am still feeling strong. Someday, everything I have will go to whoever is worth it.
My 2 friends, Victor and Miguel read the results to me and they said that lumps were found in my brain during a CT scan. They referred me to another neuro to have the 2nd opinion. This neuro also found out about the lumps located in my brain. One is located in a very complicated part of my brain. This one has been hurting so much for the past weeks.
It's kind of surprising on my part to know that I have these lumps. I know I have brain aneursym and I wonder how in the world did I have brain tumors. I am strong and a bit buff and ever since I believe that I am one of the strongest man on earth. But when the doctors found out about my Grade 3 brain lumps, I could not believe it and my whole world suddenly fell apart. I am now feeling lonely because I know the dreams I have for my future will remain as "just" dreams because I do not even know how long would I still live.
Questions keep running in my mind. And I can't help but ask, Why me? I am young and I am not even 30. I dream of having my own family and giving them the world. But how can I even give the world to them if I might not have a chance to have them.
I am very disappointed that this has to happen to me.
Everyday I feel dizzy and uncontrollable headaches. No one knows how painful those headaches are. Every time I read or watch something, my vision turns blurry.
I cannot imagine myself having this sickness. Who else is going to accept me now? :(
I am going to continue living alone in my condo unit.
Whatever will be, will be.
I am now wondering what will happen to everything I built and saved if someday, I really have to leave.
Whatever will be, will be? No. I might have to do something about these until I am still feeling strong. Someday, everything I have will go to whoever is worth it.