It's been years ago since I last talked to my ex-girlfriend, Julia in a friendly and proper manner. I realized that I have already moved on from this woman because I felt I have fully forgiven her. I learned to let go and fall for someone new more than a month ago. It was actually during our recent conversation just this Thursday night that I realized also that I have already forgiven her. In fact, no one should be blamed with what happened. She cheated on me and I also decided to let her go that time. After our relationship, we became strangers for several years, and now, friends again. No more hard feelings and no more turning back. I told her about my story, when I learned to like someone from the virtual world. She said, it happens that people really find their matches online, but only in rare ocassions. I told her, I did not give up on that woman even if she's already gone. That was actually the first time I did not give up in my entire life even if she told me she would not give me a chance anymore. Even if she already cut all her connections with me, I still did not give up because my heart never did.
Honestly, I never really forgot her. Until now, my feelings are the same even if I do not have contact with her anymore, Even though I was not able to prove to her what I really feel, at least I have proven myself that my feelings are true. The fact that my heart went over my head, I know she is special to me, and I thank her for allowing me to treat her special even for a small period of time.
If she could just read this, though I know she would not even bother, I want her to know that I have true feelings for her eversince and I am very much thankful because she was able to make me feel happy that time. She accepted me no questions asked, but I returned a big lie to her that I will regret for the rest of my life. I know that if I only made it all right from the start, it could have been the best love story I could have ever known.
I actually hated her for not really giving me a chance during the last time we talked. But now I understand her already. I have fooled a very special person whom I have just known for less than a month due to an unacceptable reason. And, Sorry is not sorry until it is seen. But I want her to know someday that I am heartily sorry for hurting her. She's always been special to me but I do not have a chance to show it anymore. I never stopped thinking about her, and my heart never stopped beating for her, However, there are people in life that we cannot force to stay forever.
As I admit my mistake in this recent blog, I also let my heartaches float on air now. Someday, I might breathe it in again and let real love be felt once more. I feel sad because she gave up on me, but I also feel blessed that this happened to me. I never imagined myself loving someone truthfully, until Julia and Kim came into my life. They brought colors to my black and white mind-set and made me see the stars hiding in my cloudy endless nights.
As I ended my conversation with Julia, I learned that love exists and is felt in different ways. I will always be sorry for what I did to Kim, but eventhough she did not give me a chance anymore, I will never regret loving her and never giving up until the universe makes me stop feeling this way,
When Julia left the restaurant, I drove away and raced with the reckless highway drivers.
My out of town post, soon.
Honestly, I never really forgot her. Until now, my feelings are the same even if I do not have contact with her anymore, Even though I was not able to prove to her what I really feel, at least I have proven myself that my feelings are true. The fact that my heart went over my head, I know she is special to me, and I thank her for allowing me to treat her special even for a small period of time.
If she could just read this, though I know she would not even bother, I want her to know that I have true feelings for her eversince and I am very much thankful because she was able to make me feel happy that time. She accepted me no questions asked, but I returned a big lie to her that I will regret for the rest of my life. I know that if I only made it all right from the start, it could have been the best love story I could have ever known.
I actually hated her for not really giving me a chance during the last time we talked. But now I understand her already. I have fooled a very special person whom I have just known for less than a month due to an unacceptable reason. And, Sorry is not sorry until it is seen. But I want her to know someday that I am heartily sorry for hurting her. She's always been special to me but I do not have a chance to show it anymore. I never stopped thinking about her, and my heart never stopped beating for her, However, there are people in life that we cannot force to stay forever.
As I admit my mistake in this recent blog, I also let my heartaches float on air now. Someday, I might breathe it in again and let real love be felt once more. I feel sad because she gave up on me, but I also feel blessed that this happened to me. I never imagined myself loving someone truthfully, until Julia and Kim came into my life. They brought colors to my black and white mind-set and made me see the stars hiding in my cloudy endless nights.
As I ended my conversation with Julia, I learned that love exists and is felt in different ways. I will always be sorry for what I did to Kim, but eventhough she did not give me a chance anymore, I will never regret loving her and never giving up until the universe makes me stop feeling this way,
When Julia left the restaurant, I drove away and raced with the reckless highway drivers.
My out of town post, soon.